The Legend that never was

I thought you were but a legend

that fills the mouths of those who teach
but was never expected to be within reach

For life is full with constant daily demand
It is nearly impossible to feel in command
So I dare not entertain that which is not known
because then it be what I will have to own

So easy it is to fall into routine
that any change is a shock too obscene
Comforting it is to feel hugged in the zone
For no matter the difficulty it is familiar and feels my own

Yet in moments of pause and quiet
I feel the lack and inner riot
Yet I let the courage escape, too daunting to try it
But these moments of quiet are indeed a thorn
for they reveal where I am indeed torn

On ..the cycle of the familiar unfamiliar goes
Dulling our senses to incline to resign
To what is , is all that can be and thus we see no sign
of possibility , hope and higher design.

Some then do what we all can
making the decision in moments of pause and quiet
To meet who I truly am
Then what was once thought a legend starts to feel real

What feels good and what feels right
starts to surface despite any daily demand
fear that used to direct me
is learning what it is to be rejected by me

life is no longer living me
I am initiating with what keeps me free
to find the energy to makes the most
through what I choose for my mind to host
of the treasures G-d gave me deep and innermost

then , Oh legend I knew your name
authenticity ,my life now no longer the same
for you are me that is no longer resigned
but committed to all that G-d will let me find